I just wanted to say sorry to most of you guys. I haven't been myself lately and I know I've been coming off as a bit of a know it all. Things are a bit difficult in my life at the moment but they will get better. I forbid it to get any worse. So yeah, sorry again for being a (insert any dirty word necessary to your liking here) Toodles.
So you're angry because you managed to ignore the homeless man on your way to work. You're sad because you realized not everyone in your family was upside down frowning as much as they should. Howling at the relentlessness of the children not in America, for opportunity has only been originated in the country of "liberty". Tear full of the heart who tells you to stop punching the bloody love of yours, for the right thing to do is not the thing you wanna do. Expressive and loud for the event of p
I'm beginning to realize more loosely what I want to accomplish. Although fear is still in place, the idea of changing my daily routine to fit a healthy lifestyle is required before I go full force with the plans up ahead. I figure that a man attempting to figure out art, is stuck with the question of self before realizing masterpiece. Ahead of this current challenge of my life, ahead a few years from now, I wish to only see what I should be doing, instead of what I don't want to do. If I see m
By Ashley & Scott Brewer It was too dark to tell whether our eyes were bleeding from the fast paced fighting sequences or the shedding tears over the desecration of our childhood. Allow us to explain. If Transformers the movie was about transforming robots and high adventure (like in the cartoons), it would have been fantastic. Also only 60 mins long. Sadly, the movie was 2 hours long, the other 60 mins of which focused on "intricate human drama." You know, the seemingly commonplac
It's all getting through. All the pain, all the sadness, all the fucking anxiety issues and stress. It's crawling up me like a determined solder aiming to strike down my very heart. I've been craving a "let loose", seriously. Booz, a fucking cig, some weed, anything! It's all crushing my mind at the pace of a recently married rabbit on a bed. I haven't slept well in over a week. I failed one class this past semester. The view of loneliness, despite the family and friends I've made this past year
I've always realized from the beginning of my time that the mass amount of influences in my life have never been negative. While fear and pain constantly hover over my soul, the people around me have always been filled with the love I crave for to the point of insanity. It's remarkable that a human being raised in a house completely opposite of the casual emo stereotype turn out beyond depressed past the point of teenagehood. It's even more remarkable that this fear and pain I've let inside me,
It's 3 A.M. I'm in my room yet again, staring at the monitor dreaming of how my life "should" be. I can't get a grip of myself, I'm noticing the paleness of my skin (for the sunlight has only been seen twice this entire week). I feel like I'm loosing myself again, in my own world where all I do everyday is grind in the imaginary, hope in the dreamworld, and accomplish nothing while gaining the self-portrait of superiority. I'm still a child, I have 2 months left to grow up. But I've been do
So I was trying desperately to keep my mental self in harmony during this long 3 week upgrade process. I found a new band via the greatest site on the net, you know it, YouTube! Anyway, here are three songs from The Creatures, and these are actually the only three songs I was able to find from the group. They're straight from the greatest music era the world has ever known, that's right, it's called 80's Italo Disco. I would be delighted if anyone could inform me more about the band and any ot
Here are the current pics as of 6/22/09 Overall weak and soft. I lack definition. Tits and belly... gotta go My arms have meat, but need alot of work. My entire body is weak and soft. Soft muscles, and alot of fat. Well... I don't look so bad. But I don't look good. I wanna be fit again. It's been 13 years since I could have I was fit. It's beyond time. Fortunately I have someone to make sure I keep on it. Im gonna be ridiculous. Quote from thread
It's been over a month since the website went down due to some lame script kiddies. O well, not much happened except the idea of me controlling my emotions :/. It sounds weird, but I'm depressed as fuck, and I'm not letting it get to me. I can come up with at least 5 different situations in the past month that I just wanted to brake down and cry (my ass off, rivers of tears pouring down my cheeks and disabling human contact for a while), but I never did. It's like all I have to do now is smile
To make a post in my blog after over 2 years... Yes, I am ready to give up. I think I lose more brain cells than a woman who goes into a tanning salon. This upgrade was fucking hell. Thanks for reading. Your buddy, GC
If anyone could possibly link me to a really brutal mortal kombat metal remix I would really love it. So far this was the best I could find. I'm looking for something that boils the blood and just makes you want to fuck shit up. s-_Dhb9YyPs
Silent Strike is a dude from my country I stumbled upon about a month ago. Awesome stuff he does. http://www.myspace.com/ststrike "Silent Strike (Ioan Titu) is a 26 years old electronic music composer and sound designer from Bacau, Romania." Sample track: V4TWY41pvlo Sample track 2: http://www.last.fm/music/Silent+Strike/_/Asian+Paper+Circus Same deal with the previous post and all future music updates. You want it, I'll share it.
Recently discovered this dubstep/dnb outfit named Burial. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Burial_(musician) "Burial is an English dubstep producer. His eponymous debut album was released in 2006 to critical acclaim. The Wire magazine named it their album of the year, along with achieving fifth place in the Mixmag 2006 Album of the Year list, and eighteenth in the best of the year list of The Observer music monthly supplement." Sample track: KoAbMfg9_Uk I might download his works, if anyo
After venting in my previous post, I'll try and rationalize as to why the word filter put in place on the 1emulation forum and blogs (and wherever else) is essentially a bad, useless feature. Purpose: As far as I can gather, the intended use of the word filter is to protect younger 1emulation from words deemed harmful to their fragile minds and psyche. Dismantling rationale: While this may all be fine and dandy in theory, understanding that kids aged 10+ already have a relatively firm grasp
Issues: my laptop broke, my iPod broke, my relationship with my parents broke, my girlfriend and I hardly see each other, I haven't had sex in a month; all the money I have is being spent on weed and alcohol, my second university venture is failing miserably, I live in a crappy basement, I'm getting fatter and fatter, I can't quit smoking these fu<king cigarettes, I'm losing friends at the rate of 2 per year and I feel like crap in general. You wouldn't normally notice this because I'm a very
Things this year haven't really been too gaming friendly for me. I quit World of Warcraft (for good this time... I hope). Then my laptop blew up. I don't have any rig I can still play stuff on and I mostly just doodle with my PSP nowadays. Too lazy to look up 360 hackings so I can pirate me some 360 games and there's little point since I don't have a hard drive for it or a second controller. I gave my NDS to a friend so he could cheat some exams but then he left on a voyage for what seems like a
The players have to choose from five different stereotypes: - The bully - The nerd - The hot chick - The not-interesting chick - The funny black guy Whoever picks the funny black guy dies first, because it fits with the horror genre. The ridiculus plots: - Dracula raises a bunch of zombies and takes over the tallest tower in the city. - A giant fissure opens in the middle of the city, releasing dinosaurs into the streets - Aliens attacking the city. - Dracula eventually taming a T-Re
Anonymous 04/24/09(Fri)02:43 No.20752417 Brooke>>>>>>Robin>>Nami>Franky>Chopper>Sanji>Zoro>Luffy>Vi vi>Ussop All in first person for the best viewing experience. Your closest friends die of illness, leaving you the last to die, alone. You live on, but are alone in an abandoned wreck for 50 years, slowly going insane from the creeping solitude, you hang onto your sanity through humor and overcompensation through your personality. By
I am not in a very good mood right now. I suppose this shall be my first ranting in this blog. I'm sure I will be skipping to and fro given I have A.D.D and I'm upset so I guess you'll have to deal with it. Amongst my friends, I'm referred to as the "Aunt Agatha" type. I'm more grown up, I keep things under control when I know they're about to do something stupid, I dress however I want, I use common sense and I'm considered original. I have my moments of being silly. Especially when I drink
Subject has nothing whatsoever to do with this entry. I just didn't know what to put up there. Nothing momentous has happened in my life as of late so what I put here this evening is nothing profound. I've been writing much lately notating various ideas for two different stories and writing a thesis on something theological. I tried working on some music today but it's extremely difficult with a kid running about. I also have two teenage brothers living here with me and they fight constantly so
Did you just see that? My awesome literary skills just combined Myspace and Facebook. God damn I'm awesome. Anyways. I've done some important (a la bored out of my flocking skull) research as of lately. The act of "dating" is the world's worst invention ever. Can you really consider dating an invention? Oh well, it is now. Upon my investigation I smoked a full pack of cigarettes in 1 hour mainly to look as badass as those 1950/60 detectives on TV. I bet if William Shatner as Captain Kirk smo
