i hadta make a few edits: it happens, alot, to everyone... so don't worry yourself about it. i've noticed you've been trying to help people on the forums out alot , i guess that's your way of avoiding being alone. I'm going to hafta give you a dosage of tough love you WON"T like if you're flocking alone, why do you think that? who's fault is that? what can YOU do to change it? take a deep look at yourself and find out why you're a loner. again it's very very normal to feel like that. but that doesn't mean it's true. so instead of complaining about it, brush up on your computer skills. read, try stuff out, do new things on your computer (that's how i learned how to make websites, graphic editing, sprite comics....etc) so you're letting her get the upper hand by you being miserable? go out and meet other women for god's sakes, there's plenty more fish in the sea, probably superior to her... BUT if she left you for a valid reason, you hafta reasses your situation. but seriously, never let a break up get to you that badly. not a big deal, and you can fix it. besides cell phones are a hassle anwayys quite normal, me and the majority of my old friends aren't the same we used to be because as people grow up, people change and things differ. the solution, spend more time together, talk crap out together, or just accept the fact that you've changed and stay friends abeit not as close as you were. Your dad is being an asshole. you have two choices: 1- do something about it 2- take it until it ends. my suggestion, take number one, it doesn't hafta be a councler, YOU can do something, just hafta think about it. say something else then. then go ahead and do it, if you want to die a weakling's death because life isn't going your way, then go ahead and do it, but know that you'll have died a pathetic weakling that couldn't fight to make his life better. if you really want to stop being depressed, THEN JUST STOP BEING DEPRESSED. it's really that simple, flock the medication, flock the therapy, flock all that, all you need to do to stop being depressed, is just that. STOP BEING DEPRESSED. anything you do or say CAN help if you want it to, it's all how you look at things. i do know how much crap you're thinking, and you have the choice to think about that crap or think about something that DOESN"T depress you. mind you, i know very well what you're going through.. i was depressed for years.