Fatal Rose

Peeps say I resemble both slightly. But I like Lee more than Jacky. Lee is my favorite char of all time. I think I found someone for you gryph but it is sadly not rendered art.

me

I like them.

No offense was taken. I know how to handle myself. I have been with girls before that have been involved and it's been no big deal, I have been with girls when I have been involved, I have been with girls when neither one of us has been involved. It's just this time it's different. I started to get feelings again, something I had not felt for a long time. There is also so much negative stuff going on in my life right now witch makes things worse (you guys have no idea). As long as I don't have to see/talk to her I am cool, and if I do see her I am going to try to stay cool.

Yes it has gone beyond just sexual desire. I do have strong feelings for. I was never even attracted to her until she started giving me signs and stuff. I being a very oblivious person did not even notice, my friends had to point it out to me. I also probably would not like her as much if her and her boyfriend actually showed love for each other. It's beyond obvious that they don't love each other. I have yet to see them kiss, hugged, touch anything. If anything she looks trapped. She is stuck in a situation that she can't get out of, a situation that she can’t express to anyone. I guess that’s where I come in. I am that someone. I always knew she was attracted to me since I first met but did not really care until everyone started pointing it out/became to obvious.

STOP!!! Damn it, the way you talk about this, it seems that you have NO control over things that occur. "I can't be around her or emotions will stir..." Bull$hit. Total bull$hit. You sound as if it is only her fault if you do things, when YOU, that is right Fatal, YOU are in control too. Think about it; it takes 2 people to have any relation. 2!!! You have a say in it too, you dumbflock. So, to say that you can only "go with the flow" is a downright lie. Please, stop your bit¢hing on things such as this. I am sorry I had to do this, but it seems that NO ONE will get through to you with regular words; maybe harsh ones will teach. Anon. You know what if I was not in such a good mood that would have pissed me off. But since we are "friends" I wont let it get to me. But I will say this anti, HAVE YOU EVER BEEN WITH A GIRL BEFORE? HAVE YOU EVER FELT FOR SOEMONE BEFORE. Certainly does not seem like it. It's not as easy as you think to just not like someone, to just forget about someone. When you have feelings for a forbidden person you can either avoid them and stay in denial and act like there not there when they are and they just build up inside and things can get worse, OR you can be man enough to express how you feel and admit what your problem is and that you need help with it.

I agree.

The legend will never die.

I can keep my cool as long as I am not around her, but when I run into her at my friends house or when we visit my friends cousin's house and she is there it starts to stir up all kinds of emotions within me again.

Then I think that's.. Dale North, mutagene, and Reuben Kee. Wow thanks GC.

/me is completely clueless to what you are saying.

Who ever did the soundtracks for the Shenmue series.

Who is the chick in your sig?

Same here.

What?

LOL nooo honey, you're not that hot no one can look or be compared to johnny depp thanks babe you made my evening She said it not me. I don't think I look like him at all.

Yea sorry for making this so long.

It's form the street fighter alpha movie.

You guys are right but I am real weak emotionally right now.

Uhmm because BLACK is the default color. Hope your problem has been solved.

Well if you guys remember this thread than you will know who I am talking about. After the should I do this thread and the incident I had with her at her house I kind of forgot about her. Well recently I and my friends have been going over there again lately. Well that started stirring up all kinds of weird feelings and emotions inside of me. I did not think it was going to matter to me but seeing her again was a much bigger deal to me than expected. It's weird me and friend go over to visit his cousin Mario and we always stay late and we all end up being there when she gets home from bingo with her mom, and we always end up outside at the dinner liek table in there backyard talking. Usually we don't get to talk much because her mom is always right there and her brother. The evening was rather uneventful about two weeks ago, my friends got drunk and I didn’t because I don't drink and so I was chilling there all bored until she got home and we all went out to the backyard and sat at that table and had ourselves a little chit chat. Again I did not get to say much or do anything because her mom was right there and I felt uncomfortable. There were moments where we were just staring at each other, (it made me want to dive over the table at her and rip her clothes off) But all in all nothing happened. Until this sat5urday that just passed. Well if you know me in real life you know that I have been rather depressed lately, so my friend said to drink this time, I agreed because I had nothing else better to do. I have never been able to hold my liquor well no matter what kind it was and on top of that I had not had a drink for probably 3 years before that. Well we bought a bunch of liquor and made margaritas (sp?) After about my fourth cup I was gone (yea go ahead and laugh) I could not walk straight, see straight, among other things, I was acting way out of character. Than on top of that I had 4 more drinks after that. Damn was I blown. I was walking around doing martial arts moves and showing off, giving any random person a hug, took off my shirt, did the splits both ways, spilled liquor all over my friend and blamed it on him say he pissed his pants, I just made a complete fool out of myself. Than all of the sudden (around 12 PM) my friend’s cousin came up to me and said "Ryan you have to calm down! My parents and my sister are coming home! Please stop!" I was ok man don't worry about it. I took a seat because I was tired than his dad came in, I tried as hard as I could to act sober and normal but thankfully he did not talk to me that much. Well he went to bed. Than the inevitable happened and they all went out side to talk and smoke. I followed against my friend’s cousin wishes and took a seat my self. I was acting way more out going than usual, way friendlier and not shy at all (usually I am very shy, especially when a friend’s parents/ ants and uncles are around). I am even shyer than ever over there because my best friend’s ant does not speak English, only Spanish. Than all of the sudden my friend’s cousin started translating all this stuff that she was saying to me, about me being very handsome and polite. That I look like Johnny Depp(SP?) and some other complements. Well I thanked her in a much exaggerated way (people say I always sound sarcastic and fake, so imagine how I sound when I am drunk) than her daughter (the should I do this chick) agreed with her. Throughout the conversation there were times that we started staring at each other and, we starred at each other in the eye so much that I got nervous and had to look away. But while we were staring at each other something ignited within me. I started feeling something inside of me that I have not felt in a long time. Emotions, I realized that I like this girl allot. A whole lot. I will admit that I have a huge crush on her. The way she looked at me really got to me. She looked like she was happy to see but she was trying to be strong and hold back what she wants to say, hold back her true feelings. For some reason it was so special to me. That evening staring into each others eyes, holding back our true feelings that we both know is there right in front of us on the table served but we have yet to take a bite because of the certain situations we are in. I want to spend a or day with her, so we can really get to know each other, I don't care about the sex part as much anymore. I want to know more about her, and what she thinks/feels about me. The sad thing is that I want everything to do with her but nothing to do with her kids. I know it might make me sound like a jerk but I am being honest. I am in no position to take up a task such as that nor do I want or have any interest what so ever in raising kids. What’s wrong with me? Why do I like this girl? Why does she like me? I don't know what to do anymore. I left it alone for a while but now it has started up again. I am so confused I don't even know what to type anymore. Can anyone relate to this? Can anyone help me? ~ from 2emulation.

hahahahahahahhahahaha..... Awesome. Now we all know what he looks like.

Thanks for the wonderful one word post. But that one word had so much meaning cockmaster.

Dan

I have 2 sisters and a brother. How does your older sister look? That was a joke btw Ian La Cream.